As I read back over my own words in my website I can't believe that sometimes I didn't take my own advice to heart.
"The moment you move forward towards a goal you become successful."
Funny, I started out with this site over a year ago and that was a step forward but then...nothing. Fear gripped. Thoughts that I really didn't have "it" or the right "thing" to say or sell.
Ironically enough I tend not to read a lot of outside influence articles other than educational material to advance my knowledge in my own career. I prefer to be not impacted by other opinions on purpose.
The lump in your throat, the heart racing and the feeling that it is so wrong and right at the same time is enough to make anyone stop. Judgement is a fear. When you put yourself out there you can't go back. What I have learnt over time is that fear wants you to quit and stay in the nice neat corner of life watching.
Every time I felt fear and questioned my sanity (although at the last fitness conference the speaker confirmed we are all crazy!) it was never an option to quit. Pride? Ego? Or just plain stubbornness I'm not sure why when all signs say stop I become the bull in the china shop barging through but it is a blessing and a curse. Sometimes it is hard to see clearly when you have so much passion and energy.
It is hard to understand how others can't possibly feel the same way in life. But, then as a harsh reminder I think back to the times when I couldn't be bothered to try anything...it was the saddest and loneliest time in my life.
Life still throws curve-balls, kicks in the teeth and just hard times but one thing that has always got me through: A run in the rain, a hike in the mountains or just playing Frisbee with my kids. If I'm moving I can deal with anything thrown at me. Leave me in the corner and I will crumple.
That is the beauty and power of fitness. It EMPOWERS so much more than just muscle, it empowers a spot in our soul that no one can ever take away from you. Strip away your clothes, vehicle, house, makeup and "things", you are left with what you have inside.
The feeling that accomplishing goals leaves you with no one can take away. Wherever you go there it is, that little smile deep inside! This I watched again come true in Las Vegas!
So off I go, blogging, engaging and putting it out there since I have asked so many others to live outside box it is my turn now!